Life

It seems somewhere in your 30’s a sobering realism takes place, some probably call it “experience” or “maturing”. I’m thinking that even though the passing of one’s youthful naivete is sad there is some comfort or confidence maybe? in drawing the line at being someone else’s fool…I’m not certain or convinced whether this is good or bad but I do know that it has happened and I’ll certainly remember that the year that I turned 35 was the year I sobered up on life!!
I just pray that my Lord will know how to save me from it’s destructive power and use anything of value for my good. But I certainly won’t be analyzing it…those days are sooo gone!!! As for me,I’ll be simplifying the moment!

Cakes

*look what I found on my BB…this draft post*

So in true style I started my blog with a bang and then….sizzle…………

But here I am and hopefully a little more forthcoming with some posts.

So I did promise to share about my cake baking and last night while trying to tidy up some of my pics, I found some evidence.

But let me first tell you about the Bisto gravy cake….smiles…..for a minute I couldn’t recall on which occasion this tragedy happened, but now it comes to me, grimly and so unforgettable.

Gratefully on my part there is absolutely NO EVIDENCE of this cake.  My worst attempt ever!  Sadly, since it was baked for a very special occasion;  our 10th Anniversary on the 4th November 2010.  I so wanted to arrange something perfect and special.  So I still couldn’t make the trip to Cape Town and Hermanus happen but at least I could bake a special cake and plan an enjoyable day together.

The inspiration:  PICNICS! A fond and memorable activity for Jacques and I, so here goes, I arrange a picnic for the day with all our favourite eats and treats and embark on a cake that should’ve looked like this pic.

But somehow, I managed to end up with a large orange blob made with gravy powder instead of Cocoa…yug!

I think I must try make this cake again, when strawberries are in season!

I did, however, rise again from this disaster, tried again and made this cake for kenneth’s birthday.

 

Just excuse the random candles…hehe.  This was an awesome recipe…just wish I could find it again.  The cake was very moist and the icing to die for!

What do you want…continued

Sharon loved this song, especially when she first came to stay with us. As I watched her sing it and when she listened to it, I could clearly see it was her hearts cry and I took as her expression to us when she didn’t know herself how to, but hey I might hear one day that I was wrong…

Just don’t give up, I am workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around

I never gave up on you, Sharon and I still haven’t. Just like I tried to give you room to breathe, when you stayed with, to figure it out and find your true self that you were created to be, I trust this time (even in years) serves the same purpose.

But thanks for lovin’ me ’cause you’re doing it perfectly

This line truly gave me encouragement. I took it for my own!

But I think you could save my life

I certainly hope we made some difference or had some inpact on your life.

Hey, whataya want from me?

I want you to be all that you desire to be and more. Believe enough to reach for better and when you can’t, be kind to yourself and look after yourself coz you are precious to someone!

Adam Lambert: What Do You Want

Whataya want from me?

Yeah, I’m afraid, whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

There might have been a time when I would give myself away

Oh, once upon a time, I didn’t give a damn

But now, here we are, so whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Just don’t give up, I am workin’ it out

Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down

It messed me up, need a second to breathe

Just keep coming around

Hey, whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Yeah, it’s plain to see

That baby you’re beautiful and it’s nothing wrong with you

It’s me, I’m a freak, yeah

But thanks for lovin’ me ’cause you’re doing it perfectly

Yeah, there might have been a time

When I would let you slip away

I wouldn’t even try

But I think you could save my life

Just don’t give up, I am workin’ it out

Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down

It messed me up, need a second to breathe

Just keep coming around

Hey, whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Just don’t give up on me

I won’t let you down

No, I won’t let you down

And so just don’t give up, I’m workin’ it out

Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down

It messed me up, need a second to breathe

Just keep coming around

Hey, whataya want from me?

Just don’t give up, I am workin’ it out

Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down

It messed me up, need a second to breathe

Just keep coming around

Hey, whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Whataya want from me?

Let My Words be Few – Matt Redman

You are God in heaven
And here am I on earth,
So I’ll let my words be few-
Jesus I am so in love with You.

And I’ll stand in awe of You,
Yes I’ll stand in awe of You,
And I’ll let my words be few-
Jesus I am so in love with You.

The simplest of all love songs
I want to bring to You,
So I’ll let my words be few-
Jesus I am so in love with You.

Today I Languish!

A special girl who holds a special place in my heart

Today, I languish !

 

I pine for my beautiful foster daughter that won my heart.  The child I saw within that I could love unconditionally. 

 

She wasn’t a burden!

She wasn’t trouble!

She wasn’t difficult!

 

She was kind

She was unique

She was strong

She was determined

She was loving

She was creative

She was Special

She was my child

 

and

 

I LOVE her,

I Miss her,

I wish the best for her,

I long for her company,

I miss her songs,

I miss her sweet voice,

I miss her giggle,

I miss comforting her and

I wish I could just hear that  she misses me too.

 

I love You, my Girl!

Make the most of your life that you can, and never forget my love for you!